Before last December, I would always have the need to wear makeup at the beach. Quietly hoping that my drawn-on eyebrows would stay in place and secretly wondering how waterproof this waterproof mascara really is. There could be endless reasons why a girl needs or simply wants to wear makeup at the beach. Speaking for myself, I just honestly and straight up thought I looked hideous without it, especially my eyebrows. *Dun dun duuuunn!* Man, god did give me a good set of lashes, but damn, he forgot my brows LOL.
It wouldn’t be just on the beach wherein I’d feel the need to wear makeup where it “isn’t necessary” (we’ll get to that later), I would wear makeup while camping, hiking, helping out in building houses, you name it! My eyebrows were always present. Ummm, it’s called #PerfectAttendance. When I would be around people who I wasn’t really close or comfortable with, I would get immensely uneasy and insecure to the point wherein I would have a hard time looking at people straight in the eye with my bare face.
It was in last December when I went to one of my best friend’s birthday overnight beach trip in Anilao, Batangas, I decided to go makeup free. I had plans to go straight from Anilao (way down south outside Manila) to up up the north, before Zambales, for an overnight rave/camping trip. Unfortunately (or fortunately!), a storm came in and they cancelled the event the night I was still in Anilao. Sooo, I decided to meet Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds there instead. Naturally, I had a great time until the sun rose and in a second, it was 8am and everyone was ready to head back to Manila. At this point, I was still having a little bit of fun still thinking I was Moana, after the sea called me in during the sunrise and the saltwater in my skin just made me realize that I just didn’t want to go home. Come on, I planned my whole weekend to be in nature and under the stars, I was just not ready to go home.
So, on the way back to Manila, I decided, “Guys! Drop me off Batangas Port! I’m going to Mindoro!” Yep, no way in hell this girl was going home just yet. So, there I was, in Batangas Port. Sleepless and tired, waiting with a lotta people patiently hoping for boats to finally be allowed to set sail, I met three new a acquaintances from Denmark. Two girls and one boy. Long story short, since no boats were allowed to set sail due to the storm, the four of us hired a van and drove (more liked passed the f out) for 3 hours to the beaaaaach. We ended up in Laiya, Batangas and looked around for places to bunk in. We ended up staying at a beautiful resort called La Luz (Fun fact: it was the same place where I first ever tried to use a tampon! ouch! I can still feel it!). I ended up staying there for two more nights and I had a kickass time with fun and interesting people, all without a drop of makeup.
I then realized that way back in Anilao, my friend’s friends didn’t treat me any differently even if I wasn’t wearing a single drop of makeup. I also met three new bomb ass people who welcomed a stranger into their circle, had one hell of a time, created bonds of friendship that will last a lifetime.. without my eyebrows, or my lashes, or my contour. I realized that I didn’t really need it because maybe I’m just fucking awesome? And you are fucking awesome, too. With or without your makeup.
There is no “necessary” time or place to put on makeup. What isn’t “necessary” is to tell someone wether or not they should put something on their face. No matter the time, place, or occasion, I definitely don’t think that your judgement or opinion is necessary at all. If a girl or woman’s drawn-on eyebrows will help her have a more comfortable and enjoyable experience, then fuck it! Let her wear her damn eyebrows. Sometimes, we just wanna look BOMB on our Instagram stories or idk, face to face in IRL? Who knows? Well, whatever it is, it’s none of your goddamn business.
There are still days wherein I look in the mirror and feel like Shrek and there are days wherein I look in the mirror and go “Ooooooh, you look good, girl!”. Sometimes I’d want to wear concealer and cheek tint at the beach, sometimes I don’t feel the need to. The path to loving my bare, God given face will be an uphill and downhill journey, but I know I’ll get there. And also, I put a sticker of Kanye West at the back of my phone to remind me that I should love myself.
Ladies, do whatever the hell you want. It’s your life. Makeup on or makeup off, you’re still Beyoncé.
I love myself